i hold emotions in during the day. i feel like a robot but it’s easiest that way. sad as it is, i dont have time to deal with my emotional self during the day so i hold it all on. yah a lot has been going on, there’s always a lot going on. lately it’s gotten to be too much to hold it in. i have random break downs all the time but even then i stop myself and dont fully let myself experience these emotions. 

so these past two days ive been watching sad depressing movies late at night (even though i dont have the time for them) and hoping ill have a breakdown. what the fuck is wrong with me. i hope perks of being a wallflower will be a good one…ive never seen it